A Cosmic Villanelle

Mars, The God of War by VINCENT DI FATE. Acrylics/Digital painting, which depicts a giant in full Trojan armour. In the background, there is a burning city.  The citizens are trying to escape from fire and laser rays.
Mars, The God of War by VINCENT DI FATE
Star One by VINCENT DI FATE. In this painting, a giant UFO flying above Earth is pulling in an entire city with an immense ray of light.
Star One by VINCENT DI FATE
All One Universe (1995) by VINCENT DI FATE
In this picture, a spaceship is flying near Saturn, coming close to an unknown planet. There are hundreds of stars and galaxies in the background.
All One Universe (1995) by VINCENT DI FATE
The Demu Trilogy by VINCENT DI FATE
This digital painting captures a spaceship approaching a high tower on a planet similar to Earth.  There are gigantic mountains and trees on the surface.
The Demu Trilogy by VINCENT DI FATE
Starswarm by VINCENT DI FATE
This picture shows a large alien squid fighting a submarine in the stormy ocean. In the background, a beautiful castle is mounted on a cliff.
Starswarm by VINCENT DI FATE
World of Tomorrow by VINCENT DI FATE
This picture is divided into halves to show contrast between the past and the future. On the left, there is an industrial city with factories exuding clouds of smoke.  A man with a gas mask is leaving the city with a futuristic rifle in his hands. On the right, a green landscape with fields, mountains, and fresh air is depicted. A handsome blonde man dressed in a white shirt is standing by the tree with a sickle in his hand.
World of Tomorrow by VINCENT DI FATE
I would give my last breath to be with you -
We can't find solace in a wistful dream:
No pain is greater than a brief adieu!

Amidst the galaxy's celestial view,
By night and day, my earthly fears grow thin:
I would give my last breath to be with you.

The sorrowful farewell hits me anew:
Your trembling hands, eyes - desperate and grim -
No pain is greater than a brief adieu!

This ruthless anguish I cannot subdue:
Your spirit comes to me - sublime, yet dim.
I would give my last breath to be with you…

Alas, the woeful memories pierce through
My heart, immured by the eternal stream:
No pain is greater than a brief adieu!

Beloved, let the stars reveal my clue
About the cosmic places - vast, unseen:
I would give my last breath to be with you -
No pain is greater than a brief adieu!

Forgive me, my darling… ~Dedicated to E.

Picture of a lady holding a rose.

Poem (Part 1):

Forgive me, my darling, for thinking of you!
Your fragrance is sweeter than peony dew,
The bloom of your lips enamours like spring,
One rapturous smile - I forget everything...
The Soul of the Rose by John William Waterhouse, 1908.
Picture of two women gathering flowers.

Poem (part 2):

Oh, bitter delusions of our first love!
The feverish blindness descends from above:
My ears cease to hear, my mouth - to speak,
No soul would survive a feeling this deep!
Gather Ye Rosebuds While Ye May by John William Waterhouse, 1909.
Picture of a lady holding a crystal ball.

Poem (Part 3):

Your hands keep escaping my blasphemous touch.
The eyes, filled with sorrow, adore you so much,
The heart keeps on beating, yet broken in two!
Tell me, dear beloved, what shall I do?
The Crystal Ball by John William Waterhouse, 1902.

***
Forgive me, my darling, for thinking of you!
Your fragrance is sweeter than peony dew,
The bloom of your lips enamours like spring,
One rapturous smile - I forget everything...

Oh, bitter delusions of our first love!
The feverish blindness descends from above:
My ears cease to hear, my mouth - to speak,
No soul would survive a feeling this deep!

Your hands keep escaping my blasphemous touch.
The eyes, filled with sorrow, adore you so much,
The heart keeps on beating, yet broken in two!
Tell me, dear beloved, what shall I do?

Orphic Symphony ~ Dedicated to E.

“Anger of Poseidon” by Mariusz Lewandowski
The Mermaid” by Howard Pyle
“Orpheus Leading Eurydice from the Underworld” by Jean-Baptiste-Camille Corot
“Orpheus and Eurydice” by Emil Neide
“Orphee et Eurydice” by Eduard Kasparides
Crossing the ocean
In the arms of Poseidon
My heart will reach you.

Bleeding with sea-foam,
Wrapped in a mermaid's soft hair,
Our spirits emerge

From the stormy waves
Where Aphrodite was born,
Pink-glowing, pearl-hung.

My tenderness plays
The Apollonian lyre
With your slender hands.

There is no escape
From the darkness of Hades
To the Olympus.

Approaching the light,
I succumb, mesmerized by
The sound of your voice.

"Beloved," you beg:
"Turn around!" Eurydice - 
Forever, farewell!

Шторм


Закат. Морской простор укрыт туманом лунным,
Но видится земля вдали.
Сгустились облака, и волны, словно дюны,
Ласкают наши корабли.

Пусть ветер всё сильней тревожит парус лёгкий,
Нам непогода не страшна.
Меж призрачных камней лавируем мы ловко
Под плеск и шумный гул весла. 

Вдруг разразился гром, и палуба качнулась -
Предвестие лихой беды.
Лишь молнии стрела - и тьма вокруг сомкнулась:
Теперь спокойствия не жди!

Повсюду - хладный мрак, и клочья белой пены
Взмывают к звёздам, словно дым.
Из глубины пещер коварные сирены
Медовым пеньем манят к ним.

И кажется - погас маяк надежды хрупкой -
Погибель ждёт средь зыбких вод!
Но так же сердце бьётся дикой незабудкой:
„Всему настанет свой черёд…”

Ночь. Теплится уже в глазах янтарных пламя -
Сонм гарпий смотрит свысока.
Держись, и вместе мы из хаоса воспрянем:
В моей руке - твоя рука.

Над мачтой вьётся буревестник, звонким криком
Моля: „Взлетайте же скорей!”
вся жизнь нам кажется теперь одним лишь мигом,
И не вернуть ушедших дней.

Смотри: затоплен трюм, течением жестоким
Уже захвачен в плен штурвал!
Не нужно слёз, мой друг, ведь мы не одиноки -
Любовь затмит девятый вал. 

Пусть грозный океан разверзнет бездну с воем,
Мы не исчезнем без следа:
Обломки наших душ стремительным прибоем
На берег вынесет волна.

Преображённые, вернёмся мы к земному,
Свободные от власти лет.
Подобно странникам, что возвратились к дому,
Увидим первый луч. Рассвет!

Волны

***
Волны укроют меня поцелуями,
Бархатом синим прижмутся к губам.
Стиснут запястья мне пальцами-струями,
Пеной пьянящей стекут по щекам. 

Тело моё увенчает сиянием
Тейя, богиня безмолвных ночей. 
Скованы веки холодным признанием, 
Призраком прежних моих палачей. 

Лёгкие стали пустыней измученной,
Жадно вдыхаю - и пламя дрожит,
Вьётся потоком и алыми тучами,
В сердце мучительно нежно горит. 

Так две стихии во мне, две истории
Переплетаются, словно венки. 
Листья лавровые - иглы терновые,
Жажда падения - страх высоты. 

My Translation of Marina Tsvetaeva’s Cycle “Girlfriend” – Part 3

Illustration: “The Window Seat” by Robert Burns, 1905-1906.
Picture Editing: Pascale Clerie
***
I’ve spent all day beside the window,
The snow was melting everywhere.
My mind was sober, bosom - tender,
Again I live without care.

I don’t know why. It must be languor,
The mere exhaustion of the soul,
I simply couldn’t bear to handle
My pencil - riotous and bold.

And so I stood - the foggy valance -
Concealed both evil and caress,
My finger gently broke the silence
By tapping on the fragile glass.

My spirit’s neither worse, nor better
Than any stranger - whom I’ve met, -
Than puddles of pearlescent glitter,
The mirrored sky above my head,

Than bird in flight, so free and dauntless,
Than racing dog with fluffy ears,
And even the impoverished songstress
No longer can bring me to tears.

The charming art of sweet oblivion
I’ve memorized from the start.
Today a feeling worth a million
Was slowly melting in my heart.


October 24, 1914

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We will meet… In a Thousand Years

You will not see these tender verses,
The message from my fragile hand.
We’re farther than the universes,
Though closer than the grains of sand.
Your trace 
                   is vanishing
                                          away:
The words, 
                    The moments,
                                              Nights and days.
You. Are. Not. Here. Anymore.
Towards infinity you soar,
And to the stars say “I adore…”
Not me,
Not me,
Not me,
Not me –
You have no place on Earth to be!
And when the world comes to an end,
Through time and space I’ll hold your hand.
Oh, but you won’t remember me!
In dreams, if dreams there ever be, 
You will unknowingly repeat
That in a thousand years…
                                               We’ll meet.
A silly overwhelming lie!
How dare you keep me up at night?
Oh, how can I this voice forget?
I wish I could, without regret,
Leave all the memories behind…
“Be gone! Come back to me!” – I cried.
“Forever, I will be with you!” –
Alas, these words cannot be true.
You’ve told me, holding back the tears:
“We will meet…
                           In a thousand years.”
I will be here! I will abide –
Your answer in my heart will hide.
Let recollections disappear,
For neither time nor death I fear.
And when the somber glow is near,
Your answer I’ll repeat, my dear:
“We will meet…
                           In a thousand years.”

The Night

The loneliest of hours are the best,
The sweetest moments of my tangled life,
When only those are by the Heaven blessed,
Who never love and never ever fight.

The silence of the night was calming like
The soothing breeze or humming of the flame
But thunderstorm with its desire to strike,
A mighty demon, to the ground came.

I didn’t fear it, nor did I stand still;
As burning poison flowed across my spine,
And then I ran, and ran against my will,
And even lost the precious count of time.

I drifted in the darkness with a smile,
Not that of madness, but of sad delight,
As if my friends returned for a while
To disappear for their final fight.

No pain, no tears, no pity for myself.
I felt the whispering of crystallized sparks,
And flew from them as if I were an elf,
Which was invisible but left flamboyant marks.

Why do night spirits dwell there, in my soul,
Where nothing lives, and feelings make no sound?
Sometimes they rise, at other times they fall,
And howl with pain, when no one is around.

“We hate you, garish, overwhelming sun!
You shine with powerful and blinding grace
Of perfect creature, which to Earth has come
From silent land, entitled now as “space.”

You cannot save a secret from one’s eyes,
You have no charm, no beauty of your own,
You hide inside a miserable vice,
You keep it deep within the scarlet glow!”

The voices of night spirits in my head
Have murmured so with fiery delight
Of beasts, by hatred poisoned and led
Into the meaningless, atrocious fight.

Adoring their passion, like my own,
I felt, indeed – there is no solid truth;
The moon and stars will soon be fully gone,
Then night itself shall have no real use.

Oh, rose-red sunrise, take my somber soul!
Erase it swiftly with your golden wings,
Before the Sacred Light I shall not bow,
For now I fear the tragic thoughts it brings.

My heart, concealed by the mist of tears,
Can’t help, but miss the tender love of night,
Which does not hurt unfeigned fragile feels,
But fondles them with care and holds them tight.

The Mystery of Nature

Believe, each day is full of mysteries,
And even when the sky seems blue and bright,
The shadows cast by giant maple trees
Evoke the visions of the cryptic night.

One doesn’t notice pearls of morning dew,
Pierced ruthlessly by subtle verdant blades;
And nature’s beauty may give us a clue
To when the brilliance of this moment fades.

The roses murmur secrets in the dark,
While nightingales sing them serenades,
And whispering of ghosts until the lark
Upon the gloomy, dreaming world cascades.

The night and day, the stars, and leaves of grass
All have their magic, which one can’t describe,
And even though wildflowers seldom last,
As long as beauty lives, they’ll here abide.

Back to the 1920s

Amidst the variegated crowd,
The laughter, and champagne,
She felt a soft subconscious doubt –
The era now has changed!

What was forgotten long ago,
Lived on before her eyes;
Jazz bands and flappers here – galore,
A golden paradise.

The London mist felt just as cold,
The moon was just as bright,
But skies seemed to light up with gold,
And tender was the night.

Short hair, silk dress, and long cigar
Now has our heroine;
What she admired from afar,
Observing from within.

All seems surreal – a fairy tale,
A dream within a dream.
“Am I confused? Am I insane?
What does this chaos mean?”

No answer yet: mere whisperings,
The laughter, and champagne,
For only stars do know these things,
And they cannot be named.